“I watch people at work just... function. They make it look so easy. I'm barely holding it together and nobody knows.”
You're comparing your behind-the-scenes to everyone else's highlight reel and you know that intellectually, but knowing it doesn't make the feeling stop. When everyone around you seems to operate on a firmware update you didn't get, it's hard not to conclude that something is fundamentally broken in you. It's not. But let's talk about why it feels that way.
Here's what you're not seeing: the coworker who seems effortlessly put together had a panic attack in the bathroom before the meeting. The friend posting travel photos is running from a relationship that fell apart. The person who always has the right thing to say rehearsed it three times in their head because they're terrified of saying the wrong thing.
Everyone is performing. The difference is that you can see your own performance from the inside - the effort, the faking, the moments where you almost lost it. You only see other people's finished product. Of course the comparison is devastating. You're comparing your rough draft to their published version.
The cruelest part of this belief is that it isolates you. If everyone's fine and you're not, then you must be the problem. So you hide it harder, perform more convincingly, and the gap between who you are and who you're pretending to be widens until it becomes its own source of suffering.
•Social media and curated self-presentation create a constant stream of other people's best moments
•Cultural taboos around admitting struggle mean most people hide their pain, creating a false consensus that everyone is fine
•Depression and anxiety literally filter your perception to notice evidence that confirms your worst beliefs about yourself
•Achievement culture defines "together" by external metrics (job, relationship, body, social life) that don't reflect internal reality
You've been performing "fine" all day. ILTY is where you can say "I'm not fine and I don't know why everyone else seems to be." No image to maintain. No reputation at stake.
Mr. Relentless will be direct: you're comparing yourself to a fiction. Let's look at what you're actually dealing with, what you're actually handling, and what evidence exists that you're uniquely broken. Spoiler: there isn't any.
Maybe you're not thriving by Instagram standards. But you got through today. You're trying. You're here, reading this. That's not nothing, and ILTY can help you build a more honest definition of doing okay.
We want to be honest about our limitations:
Social comparison is hardwired. Humans evolved to assess their standing relative to the group. The problem is that modern life gives you an unnaturally large group to compare against, and most of what you see is curated. You're running ancient software on a modern input stream, and it's producing distorted results.
"Behind" implies there's a universal timeline, and there isn't. But telling yourself to stop comparing is useless. Instead: notice when you're doing it, acknowledge the pain it causes, and redirect to your own actual goals. ILTY can help with the noticing and redirecting. Therapy can help with the deeper belief that you should be further along.
Related but not identical. Imposter syndrome is specifically about feeling like a fraud in achievements you've earned. What you're describing is broader: a pervasive sense that everyone else received a manual for life that you didn't. Both involve distorted self-perception, and both respond well to having someone reflect reality back to you.
When you feel like a fraud who's about to be found out.
Depression warps comparison. Everything looks easier for everyone else.
Why "just think positive" makes comparison worse, not better.
When the feelings hit at night and there's no one to call.
ILTY is free during beta. It's not therapy. It's not a cure. It's a place to talk through what you're going through—honestly, without judgment, whenever you need it.